感恩雙親

love THEM as how They love u

please do not quarrel with parents over small stuff.
it will hurt them much, beyond your imagination, as u are their nothing but the dearest flesh n blood in this world.
they are growing older as days passed...be more tolerate with them...
sometimes they are just showing concern to us with their own way. It might not be in a caring way but at least be appreciative. You will know the feeling of being contradicted if put yourself in their shoes.
Love them as how they always love us.

job hunting

how i wish that im still a student now....
job hunting process is really torturing....
many things have to be considered before making any decision....
salary, place, transport, skills required, future...
AARRGGGHHHH~~

ANGRY

i really hate u to the point that i want to struggle u!!!
do u really think that i ll be so stupid to confess if i ever did that??!!
NO way!!!
N y u replied the total opposite way from wat u have told them?!
wat i did was not confess to u about my mistake!
i did not do anything wrong!!!
i m just being over paranoid of ur so called high standard of **** again!!!
N the reason for y i behave like this is this will affect a lots in my thesis, deciding whether i can graduate or not!!that's y im so worry!!!n paranoid after wat u did to us last time!!!
N u tot tat i ll be tat stupid to do it again after the serious lesson u have given us last time??!!!
STUPID u ****!!!!!

VIVA

damn nervous now....
lots of worries suddenly rush in my brains...
what if i couldn't answer any of the questions tmr?
what if im stucked in the beginning and couldn't continue anymore?
what if i end up reading the slides instead of presenting it out?
what if the examiners tembak me?
God, help me!!!!

I'm Sorry

i had a serious chat with friend this afternoon. she is one of the closest friend that i ever have in my life and do share a lots with me. anyway, she was sharing with me about the way i was playing host when my old buddy came over here for vacation. seriously, she said that im a nice girl overall but really sucks in these 3 particular things.

1) time management
-i always poor in manage my time wisely and it always ends up with people around easily get mad with me. im known as late queen and aeroplane queen in some circles of friends and i do not feel guilty for it until they really explode themselves up, scold me and give me the cold shoulder. i ll only come to realize after it about how angry they mad at me and i seriously think that i gotta change this behaviour of always being late or standing people up, at least try to make some effort to improve on it. n im doing it right now. hope that i can make a difference by the next time we meet each other again in couples of years later.

2) planning skill
- again, i sucks in this too. the simple-minded site of me is always planning things without proper arrangement. i always say yes to most of the invites and without knowing that they actually clash with each other. so end up i gotta put aeroplane to my friends and some of them are really pissed off with this habit of mine. im seriously sorry about that. N i do hope that i can be a better planner next times. N im working on it now...

3) playing host
- i never realize this until today. my old buddy came to penang last week and supposingly i should bring her around and talk to her every single period of time. however it ended up that i was online-ing and left her alone there by the time we went back to my room after the day time trip. the selfish part of me that wanna rest and being idle all the time has brought the boredom to her. she spent hours with my neighbour who is also my friend instead of waiting to be attended by me. frankly speaking, im really sorry about it, feeling lousy now for it too. im such a lousy friend. *a big sigh*

here comes to the conclusion, there are several traits in me that really need to be get rid of. i hope that i can improve more in future. thanks for everything u have shared with me all these while, im really happy for u to be the most honest friend to me. as what u have said, mutual trust is really important in building any relationship up. this shows the most in our case. thank you, my dear. n reli sorry for what i have done, dedicated to V.C.